se.ren.di.pi.ty

/ˌserənˈdipitē/ noun. 1. desirable accidental discoveries 2. good fortune; luck

Even on my day off I wake up at 8am, why body why? 😭

Posted at 8:46am and tagged with: rant, life, getting old,.

Currently my life consists of work, eating, studying, maintaining the little bit of a “social life” that I have left, seeing my boyfriend on a regular basis, running consistently about 3-4x a week and sleep (or lack thereof). I am really spreading myself thin!

The pre-exam anxiety is a little much as I’m trying to keep sane while working full time and trying to get enough sleep. I’m going to take off tomorrow so I can refocus my energy and try to remain positive.

This Saturday is eventful, including my morning run, house warming party, and then a birthday dinner. I will definitely need to squeeze studying in there. Really. Need. To.

I need to stop feeling bad for feeling the way I feel and finally accept that some friendships are probably not worth having if value isn’t added.

Well, growing up is okay. I’m glad to have so many wonderful people surrounding me.

Next weekend is the five year reunion with my high school classmates that I totally forgot about. Haven’t decided if I am attending…

Posted at 1:35pm and tagged with: life, thoughts, personal,.

I wait here for your response,
The one you never knew you were suppose to give me.
I wait here for a special feeling,
A feeling inside that I choose to feel, being really stupid.
I wait here for things to work its way out,
But waiting, I’m actually wasting valuable time I should be doing.
I wait here wondering, pondering, worrying and just thinking about how it should all work out
Needless to say, effort wasted because nothing’s happening - just me and my thinking.
I wait here and I wait. I feel more nervous each time. I want you to read my mind and tell me it’s okay because I’m going through this phase
My hormones fighting with my mind
It’s wrecking with my feelings
I just want to feel like I belong
I want to feel important
But you don’t know that.
You’re tired
You put up with me all day
And you’re probably asleep
It’s been a long day.
Tomorrow is a long day
Monday’s, oh-my-god.
I wish I could be irresponsible.
Yet, today I chose to be. I feel guilty - I should be studying
I want to have some time to feel
Yet, feeling is what I dread but it’s not the positive feelings
I dread those negatives.
Man, I wish I can say to you, Babe I really like you. And I really do. I don’t know what to say or do. I don’t know if it’s love but it’s fucking damn close. And I’m very fucking scared because when I felt that I loved someone, everything could fall apart if you don’t love me back. And it’s way too fucking early to say it’s love. Yet I feel something so strong. I’m scared shitless. These hormones are only enhancing what I feel… and I am close to it.
I really like you. I’m scared.
And I was waiting… to feel important.

Posted at 11:59pm and tagged with: personal, rant, poetry, writing, fromtheheART, life, love, stream of consciousness,.

Time tic tocs
Like my heart beats for you
Your beautiful soul
You make me feel beautiful
But I don’t feel like I’m good enough
I don’t feel like I deserve this
I’m so damaged
That joy for me is believed to be temporary
Because you’re so good to me
It makes me a little fearful and teary
Because when it ends I’ll be crushed
My fragile heart
In pieces again
But I don’t wanna be such a Debbie downer
I wanna believe
Believing what I see
Believing the impossibility
Believing until I feel that I believe
That we are meant to be
Because you’re my other half who completes me
Little
Ol me
Fragile
Soul
That’s me
I’m yours.
Please
Don’t hurt me.

Posted at 1:03pm and tagged with: thoughts, personal, fromtheheART, poetry, writing, life, love, my other half,.

Sushi sushi sushi on Flickr.

Did I mention I really like sushi?

David took me to Doma and I haven’t ever been before. It was okay but honestly, it’s the company that matters :). We got a bunch of things but my favorite wasn’t the sushi. Maybe I was really hungry and it’s not pictured in this photo but it was the bibambap stone bowl! It was goooood. The ambiance is okay but it got really loud. The little decorations were really cute but Dave got a really bad seat next to the hostess stand thing. Haha, we were really chill so no worries.

Doma Japanese Restaurant
1822 Callowhill St
Philadelphia, PA 19130

Posted at 7:09am and tagged with: Sushi, Food Porn, Japanese Food, Food, 50mm, Photography, Doma, Philadelphia,.

Sushi sushi sushi on Flickr.
Did I mention I really like sushi? David took me to Doma and I haven’t ever been before. It was okay but honestly, it’s the company that matters :). We got a bunch of things but my favorite wasn’t the sushi. Maybe I was really hungry and it’s not pictured in this photo but it was the bibambap stone bowl! It was goooood. The ambiance is okay but it got really loud. The little decorations were really cute but Dave got a really bad seat next to the hostess stand thing. Haha, we were really chill so no worries. Doma Japanese Restaurant 1822 Callowhill StPhiladelphia, PA 19130

Salmon sushi burrito on Flickr.

I finally checked out Hai Street Kitchen for its sushi burrito. I instantly gravitated toward the salmon one because that’s one of my favorite (especially on sushi). Anyway, it was a little bit pricey for the size but surprisingly, filling and definitely worth a try. At least once! I’d go back but $9 for a sushi burrito seems a little absurd. It was very nice to catch up with Angela so this day was beautiful. Then I had an amazing photo session with the amazing David.

Hai Street Kitchen
32 S 18th St
Philadelphia, PA 19103

Posted at 7:03am and tagged with: Salmon, Sushi, Burrito, Salmon sushi burrito, Hai Street Kitchen, Food Porn, Japanese Food, Food, Photography, 50mm, Philadelphia, Center City,.

Salmon sushi burrito on Flickr.
I finally checked out Hai Street Kitchen for its sushi burrito. I instantly gravitated toward the salmon one because that’s one of my favorite (especially on sushi). Anyway, it was a little bit pricey for the size but surprisingly, filling and definitely worth a try. At least once! I’d go back but $9 for a sushi burrito seems a little absurd. It was very nice to catch up with Angela so this day was beautiful. Then I had an amazing photo session with the amazing David. Hai Street Kitchen 32 S 18th St Philadelphia, PA 19103

Authentic Mexican food for dinner on Flickr.

Delicious fajita. So so good. I want some now. They give huge portions and the restaurant is nice and dainty. Warning: It can get kind of loud though and the place is really small so you can hear people’s conversations.

Taqueria La Veracruzana
908 Washington Ave
Philadelphia, PA 19147

Posted at 6:58am and tagged with: Mexican Food, Fajita, Food Porn, Food, South Philly, Philadelphia, Photography, 50mm,.

Authentic Mexican food for dinner on Flickr.
Delicious fajita. So so good. I want some now. They give huge portions and the restaurant is nice and dainty. Warning: It can get kind of loud though and the place is really small so you can hear people’s conversations. Taqueria La Veracruzana 908 Washington Ave Philadelphia, PA 19147

Day 365: bowl of pho on Flickr.

comfort food to ring in the new year.

new year, new start!

(a little late but better late than never!)

Posted at 6:51am and tagged with: Photography, Food Porn, Pho, Noodles, Vietnamese Food, Project365, Challenge365,.

Day 365: bowl of pho on Flickr.
comfort food to ring in the new year. new year, new start! (a little late but better late than never!)

Day 364: I’m so glad I met you on Flickr.

I really am :) #endofcheesiness

Posted at 6:42am and tagged with: Photography, Project365, Challenge365, Stuffed animal, Companionship, Friendship, 50mm, Bears, Teddy bears,.

Day 364: I’m so glad I met you on Flickr.
I really am :) #endofcheesiness

I wanna get lost in the city, forget my name, any pain and just be content for a slight moment. Blend in and feel the easiness of my breath. No worries but just the foreignness soaking me in, absorbing every bit of me, making me a part of them.

Posted at 2:13am and tagged with: foreign, travels, wishful thinking, take me away, please,.