We have been conditioned to believe that Prince Charming will save us in his white horse wearing a shiny and strong armor suit. We have been told lies that we are not strong enough and we need to rely on a man. We were cheated of fair opportunities that can show us our worth in the workforce and that we can be just as good or even better than a man. We need to believe that we are strong enough to be alone. We are wise enough not to need a man’s advice. We are smart enough to make decisions based on our own needs and values. We are us, unique and individuals. Collectively, we can break the stereotypes and fight for our inner liberties and external battles. We are not weak. We are not useless. We are not here to make you sandwiches. We are equals. That doesn’t mean that we don’t like chocolates, roses and getting doors opened for us. What it means is that we would like to be respected and we hope to return that respect with gratitude and care. We will hold your hands in time of need and take care of you when you are sick. We hope you will do the same. That’s all that we ask for. Respect us with dignity, please.
Like how leaves fly away on an Autumn day
Leaving no knowledge of its existence,
Not one single trace.
Like you’ve never changed my life
How it still hurts until this day
As if you’re still holding me with a knife
Cutting my flesh and making it hurt.
Like it never happened before
There’s no me or a you — wait, I mean there’s no us
Because what a relationship is built on is called trust
Evaporated like water that’s gone and disappeared.
So I can heal and be better
So I can forgive
So I will no longer grieve
So I’ll let go
So I’ll be.
Be myself without hesitation.
Well you only need the light when it’s burning low
Only miss the sun when it starts to snow
Only know you love her when you let her go
I’m just a little girl
Mourning the loss of a happily after
Cuz I know that it’s over
But I can’t help my feelings
Because I am only human
So I feel deeply
Not at all sleepy
Let’s part with it
Just let it go
I beg of you, feelings
To not stay.
Is it bad that I can feel your lips against mines?
Loneliness speaks to me like he hasn’t seen me in a long time.
Void. Miss the embrace but not the lies…
Dying inside. Pieces of me fly
Smiles are also lies. The lies that I told myself that everything is going to be okay.
Lies and denial. Ain’t cool baby
No longer my baby, stranger.
No, I say you can’t blame her. Yeah you can’t blame me.
Talking about myself in third person
Detaching myself from my feelings
Because I feel the icy chills and loneliness…
Need a hug, sincerity, brevity and just something whole
Please, will you forget me?
Probably not the good memories
That we lacked much of
No wonder it’s over
At least I am free…
I’m lying here cold, wishing for warmth that these covers cannot provide for me
Holding onto last minute memories that shiver my heart and the waterfalls pour.
Remembering but wanting so bad to forget.
Helplessly fighting the cold that surrounds my heart
Fighting the morning sun that doesn’t seem to make a difference
I’d like to feel indifferent but I don’t.
The rings of my growing alarm clock doesn’t bother me.
It’s the pain that I feel and that I’m enduring
Feeling helplessly defeated
Wishing it’d be okay and for the pain to go away
Tolerating the sounds of my alarm that doesn’t bother me
It’ll be an okay day
Just a little cold
Broken inside but no one will know
Because I don’t show my weakness.
I want to forget this instance but it’s not possible
But I’m not weak
I’m strong but not mighty
I’m stubborn but willing
I might seem annoying but
That’s me and if you don’t like it, fuck off.
Fuck off alarm clock,
Fuck off cold
And fuck off unwanted feelings…